Getting and staying pregnant for infertile women like me who have suffered recurrent miscarriages is never the same as other pregnant women who have never gone through these things.
I am always a bit anxious. My Doctor told me that I would not start relaxing until my baby started communicating with me, which it did at 18 weeks, starting with a flutter or a pop of some sort in my stomach. I was sitting in my favourite chair with my feet up on my favourite foot stool and I alerted my husband. I wasn’t sure if this was it or not but within the week, I started to recognise those flutters and in the last 2 weeks, those flutters have got stronger and stronger!
Mostly, at night they happen or mostly when I am wearing my maternity jeans, which must be because of the tight feel the fabric of the jeans give and the baby must feel it!
Some days, there is less movement and that is when I get worried. So, my doctor was right, in a way. I am feeling more relaxed but on any day, I might feel less relaxed and I might start to worry about white discharge and less movement and images of my baby getting twisted by the umbilical cord.
Don’t ask. It really freaks me out that this could happen…
But, I have a check up with my GP this Thursday. Just the standard scan and doppler with blood pressure and urine check but these all add to my assurances that all is well and baby is doing well!
Cannot believe that i will be six months in 10 days! Wow!